Icey.

Are you ever so disappointed in your lack of effort in school work that you're actually ashamed of what you presented to the entire class? Like you can't believe you're so slothful and self-damaging that you can't even put in the effort to complete homework. Huge part of your grade homework. I've been doing this for the entirety of my academic career, and every time it makes me feel like crap. I sometimes even attempt to do things ahead of time, but I never quite focus and end up waiting until the last minute, even after the last minute, stay up all night stressed out and produce complete twaddle. Yes, twaddle. It's not that I don't have the ability to churn out good work and get good grades, it's that I don't apply myself. At all.

I tend to be a huge fat fail at productivity.

Just another thing I'll address in my attempt to get my life together. But enough woe-is-me since you must be utterly sick of it. I figured I'd break up all of the emo with an observance from last night that will probably just confirm I'm so strange. Not that you need more confirmation.

I have a rather large fingerprint/hand bruise of the side of my abdomen/back and it hurts quite a bit. So, after I got home from class last night, I wrapped an ice pack around it and settled into the couch. Contorted into an awkward position and holding my hoodie so it wouldn't touch the side of the ice pack that wasn't touching my back. Why didn't I just lie back on the couch with the ice pack between me and the couch? Why was I taking it one step further and not letting my sweatshirt fall over the ice pack?

Short Answer: Because I'm crazy.

I'm kind of hoping somebody will be reading this and justify that my belief is true, or at the very least that they do the same thing. However, I think the possibility of that is slim. You see, I have this belief about heating pads and ice packs. Particularly ice packs since they aren't continuously generating cool like heating pads are heat. I think that if something is on the other side of the ice pack, such as my hoodie over the ice pack on my back, it'll suck half of the coolness and my ice pack will melt twice as fast. I also think it'll draw half of the coolness/heat away from the site of my pain and therefore lessen the effectiveness of the ice pack or heating pad.

I like to think this belief has a basis in reason. Okay, maybe not.

See? Crazy.


"Quiero tu solo
No es lo mismo
Por eso espero
Huele mi cuerpo
Tú, mil y tantas
El tiempo pasa
No quiero otro"
-Nelly Furtado