Now that the heavy stuff is out of the way.

I'm so tired, but still can't sleep.

For some reason, I decided to take Adderall XR while in Vegas and let's be honest and just liken it to a 5-day crystal meth bender. Excessive talking. No impulse control in that I was doing things even my mind was like, clearly, shouldn't be doing this now. Irritability. Not eating, which is obviously important when you're drinking. Drinking to take the edge off. Sleeplessness. And, now for the crash. This part sucks because, as mentioned in a previous post, I had stopped taking it in early January so for the most part the crash was over. Not looking forward to doing that again, but still don't like myself while taking it. It makes me feel bi-polar. I'm flushing the Adderall. It's too easy to take it when I'm having trouble concentrating and I really need to learn how to organize life without it.

Let the crash begin.

I need this post-Vegas hangover to go away quickly. I hate being so depressed.

I had left my phone at home so I deactivated service while in Vegas so people couldn't call/text me and not get a response. I reactivated it today and for some reason that makes me feel nervous.

Sleeping on a bed of feathers this weekend was hell on my allergies & sinuses. This morning I woke up with a terrible sinus infection. It's a good thing I'm taking today off from work and not going to class. I need sleep.

I also need some Mucinex DM, but I'm too tired to even drive to the store.

Speaking of driving, I have no idea how I made the 1.5 hour drive home last night. I was almost falling asleep. Not even sure why I'm awake now. My eyes are so heavy, but sleeping has been difficult. I could probably be a better sleeper if I didn't think so damn much.

Stop thinking, start sleeping.

Too tired for music.